three years ago today a baby boy was born

  Three years ago today a sweet little fuzzy red haired baby boy was born. I can't help but think about his Mother. I think how heartbroken she must have been. I'm sure she had no choice but to give him up. She already had six kids at home and in her country she would have no support, no place to turn for help, no medical care,no schooling,no place in society for a child that has down syndrome. I'm sure they gave her no choice. She almost aborted him when she was 3 1/2 month pregnant but changed her mind and let him live. How hard it must have been for her having him grow in her tummy feeling him move for nine months and then letting him go. I wonder if she got to hold him or even see him, I wonder if she visits him if she thinks about him often . I know that God put him on this earth in this way for a reason. He led us to him, he knew before anything that he would be our son. But I feel for his mother , how sad she must be today thinking about him on this day she gave birth to him. How grateful I am to her that she did!

HAPPY 3RD BIRTHDAY JOSIAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Happy Birthday Josiah!

Today is Josiah's 3rd birthday and all though we can't be with him to celebrate, we will be there in 12 days. This will be the last birthday he will spend without us.




I thought for his birthday I would share the poem I wrote for him back in a the spring. we love you little guy and we will be there soon

Little boy do you know
 how much I already love you, how I look at your picture and long to hold you, long to kiss your sweet face and rub your fuzzy little head?



Little boy do you know
how I think of you in everything I do wondering what you are doing, if you are safe, how you are feeling, if someone is comforting you when you cry?


Little boy do you know
that God put you in my heart and I already love you as if you were growing in my tummy, how I hate the idea of you learning and doing all of your firsts without me,first smile,first tooth,first step,first word?


Little boy do you know
 you have sisters and brothers that are waiting for you to come play with them, a daddy that is waiting to tickle your toes and kiss your forehead and teach you to play ball?


Little boy do you know
 how many people are praying for you each day,you are special and loved?


Little boy do you know
 how hard we are working to bring you home,that God loves you and will be with you no matter what and that he is bringing us to you?


Little boy do you know
I love you?


written by Mommy for Josiah