GOTCHA DAY

As I start to type this I look next to me and see the sweetest little boy ever sleeping in my bed how blesses am I thank you Lord!

Today is one of those days I will never forget. driving to his baby house for the last time I fought back tears happy and sad tears happy because I was finally going to get my baby. sad for two reason 1st because Mike was not here to she this moment with me and 2nd because I felt for vahnya he would be saying goodbye to the only home and family he has ever known.

We drove up to the baby home and I had butterflies in my tummy,we went in-just like we have so many times before this time it was different I knew it would be the last. As I walked down the hall to his room the tears tried to come but I  fought them back. As I walked into his room they tried even harder but I still fought them. when I first came in vahnys stepped away from me and waved and said bye bye to me like he wanted me to go away,I think they must have told him I was going to take him, maybe he was sad. I went over to him and picked him up I gave him my camera and after that he was all smiles. As I took off his clothes that belong to the baby house and put him in his very own clothes he turned looked up at me and kissed me. When I put on his bright white new shoes he giggled with delight.He was so proud when we took him in to his group to say good bye he had a big smile. The nannies said look at the American boy because of his plaid shirt and jeans, we got a picture with each one. There is no doubt this boy is loved and will be missed. as i was taking pictures a tiny little boy came over and held onto me I could not help but wonder where is his mommy please lord bring hi m his mommy. So many sweet babies with no mommies it is sad.
we said our good byes Tat is`when a few tears came from me.  I found out that vahnyas group that he has grown up with has already all been moved up to the next age group the children that were with him now were all new. They left vahnya because they new we would be to pick him up soon so they didn't want to change nannies on him just before but he did already have to say goodbye to his friends the children with him now were new friends.so his life had already changed.
I bundled him up in his snow clothes and we were off, stopping in the hall to say goodbye to people as they said his name. The doctor came out of her office to tell hm goodbye. We said goodbye to the director and we were out of there! We stepped outside and a huge burden came off of me it was a huge relief he was mine all mine.Of course I will have to share him with his`Dada soon and all the rest of his family too.
We walked to the car as Heather took pictures. Int the car  (no car seat) i held him on my lap facing me and he snuggled into me it felt so good.Then it was Heathers turn to go get Anya, it was so good to meet her sweet little thing she is.
On the way back to our apartment Vahnya fell asleep on me, it felt as if he had always been with me as if I had given birth to him, as if he was always mine. I think he has been God knew he was mine we just didn't know.
We walked up our 3 long flights to our apartment and put the kids down and they ran and ran and ran all around the apartment a run of freedome. went and IM'd Mike 1st thing on the IM video so he could see him and vahnya could see Dada He saw Mike and said "Dada:"it was so sweet.
 After a video and some lunch I took Vahnya to our room for a nap I lay him next to me and close my eyes. h.He watched me. I would open my eyes and he would just be looking at me and he would smile. I wonder what he was thinking. That is when I finally really let the tears come, looking into his eyes I couldn't help it he was lying next to me finally after a year of hard work he is with me.
He woke up and we skyped the kids, they were excited to see him.
Then we went to play with Anya, later they had dinner and I thought I would try to give him a bath. I have heard that kids that have just been adopted out of a baby home don't like baths, but he loved it he splashed and giggled and splashed. Anya got in too and she had fun. vahnya cried when he had to get out he wanted to stay in. I smothered him in baby lotion(baby magic) and put his feetie jammies on.He is now fast asleep next to me. I am so blessed.