Wednesday, November 3, 2010
three years ago today a baby boy was born
Three years ago today a sweet little fuzzy red haired baby boy was born. I can't help but think about his Mother. I think how heartbroken she must have been. I'm sure she had no choice but to give him up. She already had six kids at home and in her country she would have no support, no place to turn for help, no medical care,no schooling,no place in society for a child that has down syndrome. I'm sure they gave her no choice. She almost aborted him when she was 3 1/2 month pregnant but changed her mind and let him live. How hard it must have been for her having him grow in her tummy feeling him move for nine months and then letting him go. I wonder if she got to hold him or even see him, I wonder if she visits him if she thinks about him often . I know that God put him on this earth in this way for a reason. He led us to him, he knew before anything that he would be our son. But I feel for his mother , how sad she must be today thinking about him on this day she gave birth to him. How grateful I am to her that she did!
HAPPY 3RD BIRTHDAY JOSIAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Happy Birthday Josiah!
Today is Josiah's 3rd birthday and all though we can't be with him to celebrate, we will be there in 12 days. This will be the last birthday he will spend without us.
I thought for his birthday I would share the poem I wrote for him back in a the spring. we love you little guy and we will be there soon
Little boy do you know
how much I already love you, how I look at your picture and long to hold you, long to kiss your sweet face and rub your fuzzy little head?
Little boy do you know
how I think of you in everything I do wondering what you are doing, if you are safe, how you are feeling, if someone is comforting you when you cry?
Little boy do you know
that God put you in my heart and I already love you as if you were growing in my tummy, how I hate the idea of you learning and doing all of your firsts without me,first smile,first tooth,first step,first word?
Little boy do you know
you have sisters and brothers that are waiting for you to come play with them, a daddy that is waiting to tickle your toes and kiss your forehead and teach you to play ball?
Little boy do you know
how many people are praying for you each day,you are special and loved?
Little boy do you know
how hard we are working to bring you home,that God loves you and will be with you no matter what and that he is bringing us to you?
Little boy do you know
I love you?
written by Mommy for Josiah
Today is Josiah's 3rd birthday and all though we can't be with him to celebrate, we will be there in 12 days. This will be the last birthday he will spend without us.
I thought for his birthday I would share the poem I wrote for him back in a the spring. we love you little guy and we will be there soon
Little boy do you know
how much I already love you, how I look at your picture and long to hold you, long to kiss your sweet face and rub your fuzzy little head?
Little boy do you know
how I think of you in everything I do wondering what you are doing, if you are safe, how you are feeling, if someone is comforting you when you cry?
Little boy do you know
that God put you in my heart and I already love you as if you were growing in my tummy, how I hate the idea of you learning and doing all of your firsts without me,first smile,first tooth,first step,first word?
Little boy do you know
you have sisters and brothers that are waiting for you to come play with them, a daddy that is waiting to tickle your toes and kiss your forehead and teach you to play ball?
Little boy do you know
how many people are praying for you each day,you are special and loved?
Little boy do you know
how hard we are working to bring you home,that God loves you and will be with you no matter what and that he is bringing us to you?
Little boy do you know
I love you?
written by Mommy for Josiah
Monday, November 1, 2010
check
$2,197.88 Plane tickets booked. Check!
$700 Visa's ordered. Check!
$840 Hotel room reserved. Check!
$700 Visa's ordered. Check!
$840 Hotel room reserved. Check!
Saturday, October 30, 2010
Thursday, October 28, 2010
email about our sweet boy
We got this nice email today from our agency from the last visit with Josiah.
Sure, I can share my impressions ! He has changed very much since last time I saw him: he grew, he became stronger, and he can steadily walk now. He seems to be a very sociable child. I had a chance to observe him in the playing room together with all other kids. Most of the time he was interracting with someone of them. When I came into the room he showed much interest in me as a new person, I guess. He smiled at me, he touched my hand, my camera. During all that meeting he had a toy mouse in his hands, and definately was very much fascinated by it. He never let it go! There were a couple of moments when he was sitting by himself and was attentively studying the details of the mouse's tail and ears. He looked very cute!
today while talking to the orphanage doctor I got some good news due to the latest medical check results his heart condition significantly improved!
It was so nice to get this info I'm so happy he is doing so well and has grown so much. I love how she says he held and was studying the mouse.In this picture you can see he is giving the mouse loves.That is so great because it means someone has shown him how to do that by giving him loves. I'm so happy he is getting loved on by someone.
Sure, I can share my impressions ! He has changed very much since last time I saw him: he grew, he became stronger, and he can steadily walk now. He seems to be a very sociable child. I had a chance to observe him in the playing room together with all other kids. Most of the time he was interracting with someone of them. When I came into the room he showed much interest in me as a new person, I guess. He smiled at me, he touched my hand, my camera. During all that meeting he had a toy mouse in his hands, and definately was very much fascinated by it. He never let it go! There were a couple of moments when he was sitting by himself and was attentively studying the details of the mouse's tail and ears. He looked very cute!
today while talking to the orphanage doctor I got some good news due to the latest medical check results his heart condition significantly improved!
It was so nice to get this info I'm so happy he is doing so well and has grown so much. I love how she says he held and was studying the mouse.In this picture you can see he is giving the mouse loves.That is so great because it means someone has shown him how to do that by giving him loves. I'm so happy he is getting loved on by someone.
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Waiting is over!
ok now the waiting is over now it's time to get back to work! we got Visas to order, Airline tickets to book and Hotel reservations to place. Here we come baby boy!!!
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we have a date! Had to post this Because Heather did ha-ha.
I took this from Heather Filmore's blog and changed it some.
Tuesday, October 26, 2010 WE HAVE A DATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We have a date, we have a date, we have a date! (Did I mention that we have a date?) We just got a call about an hour ago from out agency. our corrdinator e-mailed her in the middle of the night with the good news! All she said in the e-mail is that she had appointment dates for the Nine's and the Fillmore's. Our appointment with the Minestry of Education is November 15. in 21 days. we will meet our baby boy!!!! We will be with him on his Daddy's birthday the 19th . How perfect.
I woke up with butterflies this morning. It was really weird. We have been waiting TWO MONTHS for this date. We had a few times when it looked possible, then it happen. So we've been cautiously optimistic this past week, knowing that yes, the director is back to work, but who knows if she'll get sick again or something.
I have to include the correspondence between Heather and I today via e-mail:
8:28 am (Katrina to Heather)
Well, as always please let me know if you get any news from the agency.
10:38 am (Heather to Katrina)
I’m starting to feel antsy again, like it’s going to happen this week. Are you? Gotta try not to think about it all the time.
9:49 am (Katrina to Heather)
I have had butterflies in my tummy all morning like I'm getting ready to make a huge speech in front of a million people or something so maybe that is the same as antsy lol I am trying not to think so much. I think I will make some big gluey craft with the kids that has me tied up for a couple hours. right now they are just all playing and that gives me too much time to think.
10:40 am (Heather to Katrina)
Yeah, I guess butterflies is a better way to describe it. Like you feel right before you go into labor. J Did you see that Rebecca (another mom adopting from St. Pete) got their travel date on the 21st? They have to be there on Monday the 1st. So the committee is giving appointments! What is going on??
10:41 am (Heather to agency)
Hi , I just learned that someone got their travel date last Thursday to be in St. Pete on Nov. 1st. So they are assigning appointments. What’s going on? Have you heard anything?
2:14 pm (Katrina to Heather)
I feel sick to my stomach now why don't we have our date?
3;30 pm (Heather to Katrina)
It doesn't make any sense. Can't they just take a few minutes and pick up our files?
3:29 pm (Katrina to Heather)
Can I just say, COME ON ALREADY!!!! I'm tired of this. Lord, whatever you are teaching me, can this part of the lesson please be over? I feel like one of my 3-year-old daycare kids asking if they can get up from time-out!
4:55 pm (Heather to Katrina)
I hear you loud and clear. Enough is enough.
At this point, I called Mike and vented my frustration.
A half hour later, the phone rang.It was from our agency.I had never talked to her before.
( P)
I have good news.
I knew at once who she was and what she was going to tell me I started to cry.
(P)
are you ok?
(Katrina)
yes just so happy. she had to tell me the date 3 times because I was sorta in a fog in shock I guess.
I think I'm still in shock, it is something we have been waiting for so long.
Tuesday, October 26, 2010 WE HAVE A DATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
We have a date, we have a date, we have a date! (Did I mention that we have a date?) We just got a call about an hour ago from out agency. our corrdinator e-mailed her in the middle of the night with the good news! All she said in the e-mail is that she had appointment dates for the Nine's and the Fillmore's. Our appointment with the Minestry of Education is November 15. in 21 days. we will meet our baby boy!!!! We will be with him on his Daddy's birthday the 19th . How perfect.
I woke up with butterflies this morning. It was really weird. We have been waiting TWO MONTHS for this date. We had a few times when it looked possible, then it happen. So we've been cautiously optimistic this past week, knowing that yes, the director is back to work, but who knows if she'll get sick again or something.
I have to include the correspondence between Heather and I today via e-mail:
8:28 am (Katrina to Heather)
Well, as always please let me know if you get any news from the agency.
10:38 am (Heather to Katrina)
I’m starting to feel antsy again, like it’s going to happen this week. Are you? Gotta try not to think about it all the time.
9:49 am (Katrina to Heather)
I have had butterflies in my tummy all morning like I'm getting ready to make a huge speech in front of a million people or something so maybe that is the same as antsy lol I am trying not to think so much. I think I will make some big gluey craft with the kids that has me tied up for a couple hours. right now they are just all playing and that gives me too much time to think.
10:40 am (Heather to Katrina)
Yeah, I guess butterflies is a better way to describe it. Like you feel right before you go into labor. J Did you see that Rebecca (another mom adopting from St. Pete) got their travel date on the 21st? They have to be there on Monday the 1st. So the committee is giving appointments! What is going on??
10:41 am (Heather to agency)
Hi , I just learned that someone got their travel date last Thursday to be in St. Pete on Nov. 1st. So they are assigning appointments. What’s going on? Have you heard anything?
2:14 pm (Katrina to Heather)
I feel sick to my stomach now why don't we have our date?
3;30 pm (Heather to Katrina)
It doesn't make any sense. Can't they just take a few minutes and pick up our files?
3:29 pm (Katrina to Heather)
Can I just say, COME ON ALREADY!!!! I'm tired of this. Lord, whatever you are teaching me, can this part of the lesson please be over? I feel like one of my 3-year-old daycare kids asking if they can get up from time-out!
4:55 pm (Heather to Katrina)
I hear you loud and clear. Enough is enough.
At this point, I called Mike and vented my frustration.
A half hour later, the phone rang.It was from our agency.I had never talked to her before.
( P)
I have good news.
I knew at once who she was and what she was going to tell me I started to cry.
(P)
are you ok?
(Katrina)
yes just so happy. she had to tell me the date 3 times because I was sorta in a fog in shock I guess.
I think I'm still in shock, it is something we have been waiting for so long.
we got our date !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Got this from our Agency today
Here is the good news at last:
The Nine's visit to the Committee is appointed for November 15, 2010
Here is the good news at last:
The Nine's visit to the Committee is appointed for November 15, 2010
Friday, October 22, 2010
what I say to my self each day
Hold fast to Gods promise,trust,believe,do not expect,do not anticipate or worry.
Be surprised and praise God for his Glory.
Be surprised and praise God for his Glory.
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
LOOK ! LOOK! LOOK! we got new pictures.
we got new pictures of our boy and look how he has grown. he is a little boy now he has lost the baby chub and has gotten taller. looks like he is doing great.so happy to get these pictures.
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Friday, October 15, 2010
back to normal,what is normal?
I'm sad because my days are getting back to normal .ha normal I don't remember what that is .I have had this adoption on my mind since Feb. and been working on it since March. There is not a day gone by I didn't think of Josiah first thing and all thru the day. Worked hard getting all of our paper work done and now don't even remember some of what we did or how to do it. I would have to look back in the hand book.
I feel like this week my life has somewhat gotten back to normal. I can't put my finger on why I feel this way, I still think about Josiah but maybe not as much. I'm not dwelling over anything, not checking my emails expecting one from our agency every 10 sec.. I guess I just don't expect it any more, maybe I have grown numb to it, maybe that's good maybe that means I have changed. I don't know but it seems so long ago off in the distance that we started all of this. The homestudy and all that all my stress over the uscis and everything else makes me laugh now. Maybe this is like when you give birth you remember it but you don't remember the pain, you can tell the story and after a while you forget things, well that's me anyways. Someone asked me the other day when each of my kids started to walk ummmmm ok let me find the baby books. There are a few years I don't remember much at all. when my first four kids were 5,3,15 mo and new born, I guess I was just so busy. I'm keeping a journal now so I don't forget any of it. Maybe that's what keeps people Adopting more then one child, they don't remember how much work it was or maybe its because the rewards are so great they don't care. like being pregnant and giving birth. Guess if I remembered everything about that I wouldn't have given birth to six kids. ok so that's my rambling for the day. I know that one day I will have Josiah in my arms and will be thinking the same about his adoption because I'm already thinking about the first half we went thru that way. I just don't know how to feel about my life getting back to normal when I don't have Josiah in my arms yet.
I feel like this week my life has somewhat gotten back to normal. I can't put my finger on why I feel this way, I still think about Josiah but maybe not as much. I'm not dwelling over anything, not checking my emails expecting one from our agency every 10 sec.. I guess I just don't expect it any more, maybe I have grown numb to it, maybe that's good maybe that means I have changed. I don't know but it seems so long ago off in the distance that we started all of this. The homestudy and all that all my stress over the uscis and everything else makes me laugh now. Maybe this is like when you give birth you remember it but you don't remember the pain, you can tell the story and after a while you forget things, well that's me anyways. Someone asked me the other day when each of my kids started to walk ummmmm ok let me find the baby books. There are a few years I don't remember much at all. when my first four kids were 5,3,15 mo and new born, I guess I was just so busy. I'm keeping a journal now so I don't forget any of it. Maybe that's what keeps people Adopting more then one child, they don't remember how much work it was or maybe its because the rewards are so great they don't care. like being pregnant and giving birth. Guess if I remembered everything about that I wouldn't have given birth to six kids. ok so that's my rambling for the day. I know that one day I will have Josiah in my arms and will be thinking the same about his adoption because I'm already thinking about the first half we went thru that way. I just don't know how to feel about my life getting back to normal when I don't have Josiah in my arms yet.
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Anne Marie
And today I'm reminded why I can stand to wait and why I will do anything I have to do to get Josiah home. Today a little girl that many have come to know and pray for from Reeces Rainbow a little girl that spent her 5 years of life in an orphanage with no mommy to hold her, no daddy to kiss away her booboos, no family to love her.A sweet little 5 year old girl died today alone. sweet AnneMarie you can read her story here
Anne Marie
Anne Marie
no choice but to wait
We have no choice but to wait, after all the rush to get all the paperwork done notarized, apostilled now we wait. life goes on as usual. we have done our part now we wait for the lady that was to give us our date to go see Josiah 7 weeks ago. . she went on a three week vacation came back to the office but didn't have time to go thru all the dossiers.so we wait and then she got sick and has been sick for almost three weeks. so we go on with life trying to make it feel normal as we wait for this one lady to get back to the office and give our facilitator a meeting to talk about our dossier. and give us a date to at least come meet the committee and get our referral to go see Josiah. so life goes on right! I'm trying to let it trying not to let this get me down,trying to see the up side of things, trying not to think about it because I have no choice but to wait.
