Tuesday, November 23, 2010

I miss him!

 We have been home now for 4 days only 4 days and life is getting back to normal, my wonderful fulfilling life with my awesome husband, my fantastic kids and my dream job, in my nice big warm house. yet I yearn to be in that little hotel room around people that don't speak my language, crazy drivers, rubles instead of dollars, strange food. Just so I can go see my boy, I miss his sweet smile, his cute little voice, his facial expressions, his dancing but most of all his giggle oh his giggle melts my heart. I told myself that coming home without him would be ok. I didn't get too upset when we had to say bye bye for the last time. because I knew he was in a good place, well taken care of.  All my questions were answered about him. I would be fine! but our coordinator emailed today saying our court date could be as late as March MARCH!!! no! he will grow so much, change so much in THREE months. I want to go back and get him now! I want him here to see his face light up looking at the Christmas tree,  to watch him open his gifts Christmas morning with his brothers and sisters and to watch him dance with Amelia at church. I want him home with us.So now you ask me was it hard to leave him? no not at the time, but now that I'm home and doing this darn waiting game again it is really hard probably the hardest thing so far.

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